No phone!!!!

I lost my phone, or so I thought. I had just forgotten to take it out of the car when i came to office. But unlike before, i did not get anxiety pangs when i found out I did not have the phone. I did look around for it, but it was more because it seemed appropriate. Otherwise, i felt lighter. Having this mode of communication cut off was so relaxing.
Dry runs have started and life is a pressure cooker. My brain is trying to keep pace with the roller coaster life i have now. But it sometimes leaves me worn out, mentally. After two days of intense anxiety (for stuff that wouldn't have made me raise an eyebrow sometime ago), screaming at people and getting screamed at, I am now feeling stupid. Why do we become pawns so easily? Why do we take on so much nonsense and trouble ourselves with things that don't matter? This is not an excuse to not work, no one can live without work but why cant we work constructively. This is a creative medium, why make it a destructive one. I have one life, one mind and one heart. I am not about to waste these in meaningless issues. Its important to be centered in the middle of chaos. That's what I will try to be.